Mum,im missing you soo much,i need to tell you so much,,,, i need to see you, hear you, touch you, i want to make you smile.Its not fair, i need my Mum,,,,i want to hold your hand everyday, and look after you like i did for the 7 weeks you were in hospital, i still cant understand how this happened to you,,,, and we are fighting for answers, nothing will be good enough, you should still be here with us all.You broke your hip and never came home!! I want to go to see a medium mum, but im scared incase you dont come through to me,,,, i so desperatly need to know there is a heaven,,,, that you will be waiting there for me with Perry,,,, and that you are well, happy and resting in peace thats all i can ask now isnt it. I go to your resting place and take good care of it, but its not right, i can not get my head around the fact i am going there instead of to the house to see you, seeing your picture on your lovely headstone makes it so real, i dont like it being so real Mum. I want to live in the little bubble were you are just away for now,, its too hard to believe it all. But when those memoies hit me, the reality of it all, it breaks my heart, i try to put on a front to everyone, just like you did over the years and its so hard, how does anyone get over loseing their mother,,,, people say life goes on, im trying for the kids sake,,,, really i am. well Mum, i will be thinking of you every day, your in my heart always, love you, your youngest daughter mel xxxxxxxx