My dear Mum, Christmas has been so difficult without you, as is life.... i think of you and miss you every single day. I have been going over the last weeks of your life alot lately,i know you had enough, you fought to the end.I am soo proud of you, my 'Hero Mum'. But MUM you only went in for a hip replacement, and you should of come home. I was so pleased when you moved to Tenby Ward, you were one step away from being home, which is where you wanted to be. But it didnt really happen that way did it..... you came home Mum, but not in the right way..... you could no longer talk with us, tell us off, or sit in your chair.........but you were at peace. I could not say goodbye Mum,... i didnt want it to be real, couldnt take it in, not after seeing you fight like you did. Growing up, you were an older Mum, i was always scared you would leave me(scared you would die), but you were there always, now a massive part of me is missing. my guilt is not seeing you enough when you were here, i rang most nights, came up some weekends, was there when ever you needed me,but thankfully i was there everyday for 7 weeks that you were in hospital.Those 7 weeks were one of the hardest of my life...so many emotions, highs and lows, but i wouldnt have wanted to be anywhere but with you.So now Mum, i pray you are at peace, and with my 1st born son Perry, i know you will take care of him, as you took care of me. Two angels in Heaven, love you millions Mum, God Bless your youngest daughter Melanie