To a very special lady my Mum, its been three years today Mum that you closed your eyes here on earth forever. we are all trying to carry on and be strong believe me that is so hard without your guidance, reassurance and support, i try to think what you would do... im stubborn like you.. but i wouldnt change that. we have put verses in the observer for your anniversary, as you felt strongly about this, i took dad to the cemetary and i placed a posy of flowers there for you, i am sorry i dont visit your resting place often Mum, but i find it so difficult, i try to block it out, but when i go there its all too real, i dnt feel able to cope with it. Jamie came with me today. we all miss you soo much, and as i have said previously you are and always will be my Hero, you stayed so strong and fought till you were too tired to fight anymore,this amazes me to this day, you were soo strong Mum. well some news for you, Tia started the comp in sept, she is growing up so fast, she loves to talk about you, she is seeing a consultant on wed about her tummy problems i hope we can soon get to the bottom of it, so that she no longer needs to be in pain, or have swollen tummys. Jamie, well he has passed selection and is joining the army hes hoping for March intake, i feel worried but this is what he wants and hes worked hard for it too, so im going to support him as much as i can. Jake is in his final year of the comp and is hoping to go to college to study enginering. he has just finished his 2yrs as a yff (young firefighter) he has achieved his duke of edingburgh!! ohh and jake has a girlfriend her name is Hannah and he is all loved up lol. Mum im still working at the school, i sometimes find it all too much, but im trying my best. well try to stay close and look out for the kids for me, i thankyou for taking care of Perry for me up there, give him lots of huggs from me and the kids, i couldnt think of anyone better to takecare of him for me. thankyou Mum. well im going to go for now, you enjoy the peace and quiet up there, sending you so much love, hugs and kisses from us all love you sweet dreams your baby daughter Melanie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx